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Exams and shets

So My bestie and I have been planning what we oughtta do after exam . I mean since I'm gonna transfer or might not  XD so we thought to YOLO aft exams :3 There's really nothing much we can do really, being constrained all the time by our  loving over protective parents all the time . 
Things like ; Go friend house ton ,going overseas and night hangout and stuff like that is just impossible xD

But little things like ; watching movies, bowling , swimming , slacking etc do seem fun but we want to make the best out of everything we had done . 

I'm just going to list out things that we had already fulfilled :
- Universal Studio 
-Siloso Beach
-Sentosa
-Vivo city
-Wild wild wet
-Watch movie 
-Bugis Street
-Ern water playground @ Lot1 XD 
-Far East Plaza
-Our secret place ;)
-Chinatown i guess ? Supposingly to be group project 
-Paya lebar  [rmb we went to Lan to find Nichkun xD ]
So yeah :3 and stuff we plan to do ;
-Bowling 
-watch movie
- Customize shirt
- Event for Halloween @ USS
-Shopping Spree :D
There's one thing I've always always always always ALWAYS wanted to do was to Countdown for Christmas @ Orchard road with my bestie :D CUZ IF I COULD I WOULD BUY LIKE DUNNOE HOW MANY FOAM SPRAY :D but sadly it only occurs at night and it's also pretty late .. :'( we even planned this last year but we can't go . 
But this year is going to be different ..I'm going to try my best and make it come true :3 besides I could tell my mum that it's only going to be this once since I'm transferring and I could use my good result to convince her also (that is only if I did get a good result XD ) I'm very sure my mum allows but the thing is , it's gonna be REALLY late . Like even 12 am, IF we did stay for the countdown . It would be like the ultimate fun thing to do to conclude my 2014 being the best year to me so far . 
I'm going to try my best , so you also must get good result ahh ! :3 Ltr I smack your ars ~.~
Even if we can't also nehvermind one luhhh :3 we can go when we grow up marh :D HAHAHAHAS .. Oh ya . One finale thing before I end off my post .
I might be changing phone after exam , cause my parent already bought one . And for the first time , I'm going to use android phone :3 YAYZ! Apple is nice but I can't customize my phone without jailbreakig . I actually tried to jailbreak once and my phone completely crash . It scare da shet outta mehhh :c actually , beyta font has more prettier font than android but it needs to be jailbrk then can use ..but I'm so scared TToTT
anyways , :3 I'm going to look forward using android for my future long run as my buddie <3
I'm gonna miss using iOS emojis ;c
 With that being said , I'm going to end off my blog post here , 
Oyasumin <3

Family issues ?

When mums pms is damn scary ._. Like srsly I don't get them . Like just now , I was just in room using my phone then she suddenly come in and scold me .
This was how the conversation went 
Her : Why you take so long charge your phone ? 
Me: Because it's not full wut 
Her: So you want me to everytime approach you for charger ah?
Me: No ? I'll give it to you when I'm done
Her: *stares* you know your very rude ?
Me: huh
Her: you don't act blur 
Me : huh
Her: You huh what huh 
Me: ...
Her: So late already , don't want go school ah ?
It's only 10.30pm Wdf?
The whole conversation was spoken in Chinese . I translated word for word and it's exactly what she said . 
In actual , she actually said it in a more stern way like as if I really did something wrong. But the ironic thing is that I wasn't at fault .
I did not shout , or gave her acttitude or any form of disrespect . I was just simply answering her question , and she got pissed off .
At the end convo , she suddenly change the topic which was irrelevant to the what we were talking about .

Since I came this far talking about my mum scolding me for no reason i might as well talk about a similar incident that happen to me not long ago

It was during June holiday , my mum went back to Indonesia because my grandfather was unwell and hospitalized , she was told that his condition was critical  and to visit him as soon as possible. My mum heard the news and she was devastated . She packed her luggage and left after 2 days later . My job was to buy lunch and dinner for my dad everyday . So this is what happen , It was in the afternoon and I was in my room using my phone and suddenly my dad budge in and handed me a 50$ note to buy lunch for him and asked me .
Him: If your buying 7$ worth of meal how much change should you receive ?
I was abit slow in calculation and I accidentally said 42$
He asked me again , but this time he wasn't asking ,he was flaring at me , his face went red and his eye was fixed on me almost as if I killed his mum or something like that. I didn't had a definite answer in mind , not that I can't count, but I wasn't in a right mind to do mental calculation especially while having your dad stressing you out like that . 
So I hesitated a little and said 43$?!

Was it over ?

Can I go out now and never come back ?

No it wasn't . 

He threw his wallet at me and asked me what took me so long. 
He then took a chair and threaten me to find his wallet because he didn't know where it went and I was pretending to search for it but honestly I don't even give a fuck about his damn wallet . When he found it , he asked me leave . I quickly changed and went out as fast as possible . He kept shouting for me to get out and die and never come back , and say what get hit by car ...this and that . It was clear to me that this wasn't home anymore . I took the money and my phone and left the house . 
My mum isn't in Singapore , I don't know who to turn to , I wasn't thinking straight back then and I was just running away as far away from hell as possible , I didn't know where I was running to but Im certain that I'm running  in one direction . 

 I kept running and running . I didn't want to stop , I'm afraid if I stop I might end up in hell. When I realised I was following the train tracked , it led me to Junction 0ne and I went to the toilet and texted my mum that I'm not coming back home . She called me , and I explained the whole thing to her . She then called my sister to fetch me at Bpp . 
But my sister was at work so she asked her friend ,Jess, to pick me up . 
I knew it.. No matter how far I run , I can never run away from reality , so no matter what I still had to face it 
But i was surprised that I manage to walk from cck all the way to Bpp , which usually takes around 10-15 min to get there by Lrt but it didn't seemed that far back then because I wasn't even in the right Mind to even care where I'm going.

Probably you might say , if I had answer the answer correctly , this might not have happen right ? Wrong .

 It happens all the time , 
When he is really stressful he vents his anger at my mum , but because she's not here he vent his anger at me ..so I pratically took the blow for my mum 

My mum who had endured this for 14 years with even more harsh word and beatings , throwing , treathening , etc . 

My mum and I knew that my dad was abnormal ,different from other dad and she always told me to suck it up and live with it . 

I know there are people out there who are just like me with even much worse family problem , but this is my story and here I am sharing with the world my story :)




Convo with SK

I don't why but I was reading through my previous conversation with one of my friend on whatsapp and I find it dam hilarious XD maybe it's just me . I dk









So , lately I've been trying out Wordpress for the fun of it . And I'm going to do a review of the difference between blogspot and wordpress soon ^_^

Typical Unproductive study date

My mum gave me a free complimentary pass to ice skating and the expiry date is quite near so I decided to go on Friday which The study date was also on Friday , coincidencely or not it's held at the library behind jcube . So I just thought to just drop by and say hi . So we met at Mac and had breakfast ~ 
Afterward at about 12:30 I left , and went to the rink .
Not realizing ,  they actually came to watch me from above for 1 hour or so xD
And I fell when Siti called out to my name (>/#\<)hahas. 
So about 2 pm I left earlier and meet up with them, and since it's called study date for a reason we had to study right ? nope. We were wandering around At jcube because it was renovated and Isaac was annoyed so he went to the library first xD
After that's done , we went to the library , It's time to study right ? Nope . We wander around the library and just talkin , so finally we found a spot and studied on the floor next to the lift . Some of them were "studying" while I'm just feeding on Isaac's potato chips !^^/
Afterward , Siti's mum treat us to watch  Maze runner . Mel and I were fan girling over Ki Hong while Nadiah , Hidayah & Siti were fan girling over Thomas but but but ..KI HONG WAS SECUTE > w < GAHHH
And we took SELFIES To cherish this memorable day ~ 

#A typical unproductive study date as usual





Drunk dude

So yesterday my family and I went to this temple place, cause they were holding a shouting game . So basically it's like buying things while shouting y'know ? The one who willing to pay the highest price gets to buy . They serve food too . We came for the food . And there was this ang mo sitting with us . And his like some rich dude buying every wine they have . And then he just keep making everyone drink his wine . He kept pouring  Into people's cup even they don't want to .  He even poured wine on our food . FK tht dude . Ruin my food -.- 
His really quite an eyesore , not to mention his wine stinking up the whole place . Can you actually believe this guy poured red wine on people's tea ? Urk.
That's not the worst part . It's just horrible to have someone shouting on the full blast microphone while enjoying your meal . He just doesn't want to shutup . It so horrible , that I went out and watch some olden puppet show that NO ONE was watching . It wasn't really all that interesting but it beats having to seat there with a drunk dude while listening to someone shouting . 




Don't be decieve by thier look . They are just as annoyed as I am but choose to awkwardly smile .  He even tried to pour wine on my cup , but my parent took it away and decline as nicely as possible . My mum told him I underage but then he was like mehh nehvermind . 
 
Anyway I'm going sleep so bye 

Republic poly STA

YOkay so on Thursday , I get to skip class cause I had some enrichment thing for Drama . We went to Republic Polytechnic  and basically they are promoting us to join STA ( School Of Technology For The Arts ) Well I'm not really an Arts person so I wasn't really looking forward to it . The first programme touch more on your creativity so it's basically improvising and stuff which is basically what we did in Drama . We did frozen image and dancing . We also did game designing and um Media production and design and sonic arts and some stuff I can't remember all of them . There's one part of the programme that we got to actually shoot a scene , we actually got to do what people do behind the scene when shooting a movie . So there's 3 compartment . The first one you get to go to this sound proof room and manage the lights and sound , the second one which the floor manager that opoerates the camera and the communication between everyone , the third one is the actor lols . So I was in the 2nd compartment and my job was simple , I got this huge paper and I'm suppose to hold it up for the actors to read and switch the paper after they finished . I think I screw up ._. But whatever . 
On the last programme we all get to make hand phone holder which what my school is currently doing now for DNT. So everyone need to be in pairs of 2 and we are suppose to design phone holder for our partner . Surprisingly Mavis did a great job and currently I'm using it 

Honestly , I did give a second thought of joining STA . But like I said , I'm not really an arts person . At the end of the day I have to admit , it's quite fun . And we were given certificate for participating .
Btw I end up having 2 cert cause there was a typing error of my name .
And we got to do a photoshop like a magazine . 
Look at Mavis lol 
Hmm that's all for today bye